I know you are not free for me on Saturdays. My long term suspicion is either you think spending any amount of time with me on weekend would somehow legitimizes a relationship and make it harder to go back to the every so often weeknight rendezvous, or you are in a committed relationship that prevents you from spending weekends with a married woman like me. I am certain you do social things on weekends, just not with me.
You should feel comfortable telling me these things. I like to know where my boundary ends. I'm traditionally really good at just having a physical relationship without any emotional attachment. I'm also good at having an emotional relationship without any physical connection, Combining the two is very very difficult. Most of the time I think I'd rather be just a sex toy to you and being used more frequently. Other times i think I can manage both a physical and emotional relationship.
In any event after a few weeks of physical separation I began to think the former idea is what I prefer. That thought process goes through my head for some time and eventually the physical longing is curbed and I start to just focus on the friendship part. I start to think I don't need to have sex with you any more and I just want to be a friend with you and hang out with you on occasion.
The true intimacy is enhanced only through regular intercourse. A prolonged separation tends to reset everything, including my desire for you, my desire to be with you, and my desire to be of something of a substantial importance to you.
From that perspective, I felt that by you choosing to make time for me, I fall out of love and I have to learn to feel something for you again.
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