C emailed to tell me that he went to the University last night because he had work to do. I think he thought that I might have called him and he did not pick up the phone as we often chat in the evenings.
I had not called him. I was busy reading. I had a lot of things to do. One of which was to sort out of my emotional state of confusion and try very hard to separate my physical needs from my emotional needs.
I also had to work very late. I like working. I had to get up really early to work as well. But it has gotten to me.
But that's very cute. I like that he's considerate and that I'm on his mind.
The scale might have just tipped. He's not the most exciting person in the world. But he cares about me, we have an emotional connection. Sex is phenomenal. Unbelievably great. He was the only person I could achieve orgasm with every single time. He is low maintenance. He is extremely smart. He does not require any emotional maintenance. He does not play games. I think he's autistic, a little bit.
He had told me that his ex girlfriend had returned from Germany. She had been wanting to get in touch with him and hang out more often. He had been blowing her off because he felt that she was being underhanded about everything. By calling his friends and getting in touch with his parents, she seems to try to assert her back into his life. He had been ignoring her. I began to think that B was ignoring me. He has been. Only email once in a great while and not making plans to see me. Am I also his side gig? I don't mind being the side gig, I just want to be seen regularly. I don't expect heavy emotional attachment, I just want to have fun.
It's been a long week, though when I wake up I realized my dreams are not about B any more. I have not dreamed about him much. I did recently dream about C writing about his ex and how much he really loved her, and he didn't want to be with her because he didn't want to get emotionally involved with her. But then I realized that's not true. C likes being with me. On Fridays we often just hang out together, we don't necessarily do much but we enjoy starting the weekend together. Every Friday it seems. He likes to kick back and hang out with me, we sometimes watch a movie, or he'll make me a meal, and we'd talk and catch up. It's really that simple. It's more or less like a real relationship, with a nice way to wrap up the week and start the weekend. I guess in a way we all just want that. A good companionship, a good way to take mind off things and a good way to start the weekend.
I don't know why and how I ended up here, but in a strange but assuring way I've started a new chapter of my life, where life is simple and uncomplicated. And let things mature and evolve.
This is my life. And life is good.
I had not called him. I was busy reading. I had a lot of things to do. One of which was to sort out of my emotional state of confusion and try very hard to separate my physical needs from my emotional needs.
I also had to work very late. I like working. I had to get up really early to work as well. But it has gotten to me.
But that's very cute. I like that he's considerate and that I'm on his mind.
The scale might have just tipped. He's not the most exciting person in the world. But he cares about me, we have an emotional connection. Sex is phenomenal. Unbelievably great. He was the only person I could achieve orgasm with every single time. He is low maintenance. He is extremely smart. He does not require any emotional maintenance. He does not play games. I think he's autistic, a little bit.
He had told me that his ex girlfriend had returned from Germany. She had been wanting to get in touch with him and hang out more often. He had been blowing her off because he felt that she was being underhanded about everything. By calling his friends and getting in touch with his parents, she seems to try to assert her back into his life. He had been ignoring her. I began to think that B was ignoring me. He has been. Only email once in a great while and not making plans to see me. Am I also his side gig? I don't mind being the side gig, I just want to be seen regularly. I don't expect heavy emotional attachment, I just want to have fun.
It's been a long week, though when I wake up I realized my dreams are not about B any more. I have not dreamed about him much. I did recently dream about C writing about his ex and how much he really loved her, and he didn't want to be with her because he didn't want to get emotionally involved with her. But then I realized that's not true. C likes being with me. On Fridays we often just hang out together, we don't necessarily do much but we enjoy starting the weekend together. Every Friday it seems. He likes to kick back and hang out with me, we sometimes watch a movie, or he'll make me a meal, and we'd talk and catch up. It's really that simple. It's more or less like a real relationship, with a nice way to wrap up the week and start the weekend. I guess in a way we all just want that. A good companionship, a good way to take mind off things and a good way to start the weekend.
I don't know why and how I ended up here, but in a strange but assuring way I've started a new chapter of my life, where life is simple and uncomplicated. And let things mature and evolve.
This is my life. And life is good.
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