Wednesday, January 1, 2014

Not a New Year resolution

No man wants a woman who nags constantly or projects negatively or take things too personally or who is too irrational. Every man wants women to just let them be, no negative and / or narcissistic energy. Men, as they get older, they want to just be left be. Men run away from woman who makes things too difficult.

Women like to be loved. At the end of the day women want to feel they are important, and they are worth something for someone.

I have learned to stop pushing my agenda for the sake of pushing my agenda. I have learned that for me the most important thing is to follow my heart. If my heart feels a certain way I must allow it to grow. To mature.

I have been through several stages of my emotional peaks and valleys with a person who I love, who I do not see often enough. I truly feel that he loves me back, in his limited capacity way. I don't know what the future holds. 

At Ocean Beach, I saw some red roses. It was quite unexpected. I thought it was remarkable and symbolic. On January 1, 2014, instead of worrying about my love not returned by the man I will love until the end of the day, I saw the most impressive sunset, and while I was not with him, I thought perhaps it was okay to have a future unknown. We must learn to be happy,  we must learn to live in the present.

Is it enough to know that he loved me? Perhaps not, but I can't change anything that he's not willing to change. I will still feel sad and I will still cry, but I will not stop living. 

If there was anything to be learned in the last three New Years, that is that love is a powerful thing. Love will find a way.

It always does.

 

 

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