I set my alarm at 5:45. I don't like to be late to see him. I don't like it because our time was often so limited. I found the entire getting together and then separate thing exhausting because I love to be with him more often. More often than what he allocated to me.
He's funny. I think the more he knows me and knows where I'm at vis-sa-vis this relationship, the more comfortable he is with himself and his natural self is a very funny self.
When he sees me he kisses me he wants to be with me. I like that. I like that I'm his and I'm equally aroused with him. I can't imagine not being with him or being with others. I don't feel sexually charged with anyone else, not for a long time. I don't need to feel anxious around him any more. I just need a definitive ending. Whatever it is, I want it to be one.
He said that he wants to have a talk with me but not today. It sounded like that to my question he seems to have an opinion. He wants to have a talk with me. I said OK. I think at this point he knows where my head is at.
But where do we go from here? I don't want this to be a secret any more. I think this is a road that we are on that is not going to end well if either one of us is not on the same page.
I told him for Christmas I want to string all the stories and give it to him like a book. But I worry about the content because not all of it is flattering. I want to see him as soon as he gets back.
I want him and I need him. That's a fact. And one day I want to be free of secrets. I want to know when I go home I am looking forward to being with the person I've been madly in love with for years. I want to know that when the sun is down I'm with him and when the sun is up I'm with him.
I want to feel loved and I want to love someone.
I want that someone to be him. Perhaps that's what we have been looking for. We want to find that person that makes us feel alive. I have found the person.
But where do we go from here? How should we proceed? What changes one must make? What would he be willing to do?
If you love someone so completely so passionately, how do you go from point A to point B?
He's funny. I think the more he knows me and knows where I'm at vis-sa-vis this relationship, the more comfortable he is with himself and his natural self is a very funny self.
When he sees me he kisses me he wants to be with me. I like that. I like that I'm his and I'm equally aroused with him. I can't imagine not being with him or being with others. I don't feel sexually charged with anyone else, not for a long time. I don't need to feel anxious around him any more. I just need a definitive ending. Whatever it is, I want it to be one.
He said that he wants to have a talk with me but not today. It sounded like that to my question he seems to have an opinion. He wants to have a talk with me. I said OK. I think at this point he knows where my head is at.
But where do we go from here? I don't want this to be a secret any more. I think this is a road that we are on that is not going to end well if either one of us is not on the same page.
I told him for Christmas I want to string all the stories and give it to him like a book. But I worry about the content because not all of it is flattering. I want to see him as soon as he gets back.
I want him and I need him. That's a fact. And one day I want to be free of secrets. I want to know when I go home I am looking forward to being with the person I've been madly in love with for years. I want to know that when the sun is down I'm with him and when the sun is up I'm with him.
I want to feel loved and I want to love someone.
I want that someone to be him. Perhaps that's what we have been looking for. We want to find that person that makes us feel alive. I have found the person.
But where do we go from here? How should we proceed? What changes one must make? What would he be willing to do?
If you love someone so completely so passionately, how do you go from point A to point B?
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