As if daily phone call not enough, he has started to planning our days together. Each and every day involving something about seeing me. I don't generally despise it but he seems to be without any back bone, everything is about me. Putting me in front of anything, anyone. He's popular, there are screaming kids who adore and worship him. He's cute, a hipster, a very quintessential young kid who's gotten well advanced for his age. But he is not aware of his star power.
Not yet.
He's become so involved in my life, and so in tune with everything that I do, he pleases me to no extend, and he does everything that he can to put me in the center of everything.
I know his type. I am really good at crushing his type.
I don't know how to slow him down. He is having a huge uninvited, self made crush on me. Everything is about me. Every little thing is about me. I can't handle it. I find it tedious. Boring, I find that he is suffocating me.
Every day he wants to do something with me. Every evening he wants to be with me. I can't do that. I have grown up stuff to deal with.
He wants me to be in his life and he's seriously falling for me.
I don't want to take advantage of him. I just want to be left alone. I don't know how to do that without breaking his heart.
This is a nightmare.
One moment I am enjoying the attention and being put on a pedestal, the other moment I have to tell someone that I can't see them anyway, even as a platonic friend. I don't think that's what he wants and I can't be anything more.
This is crazy.
How do I break someone's heart? I hate doing that. But that's inevitable. I have to.
Not yet.
He's become so involved in my life, and so in tune with everything that I do, he pleases me to no extend, and he does everything that he can to put me in the center of everything.
I know his type. I am really good at crushing his type.
I don't know how to slow him down. He is having a huge uninvited, self made crush on me. Everything is about me. Every little thing is about me. I can't handle it. I find it tedious. Boring, I find that he is suffocating me.
Every day he wants to do something with me. Every evening he wants to be with me. I can't do that. I have grown up stuff to deal with.
He wants me to be in his life and he's seriously falling for me.
I don't want to take advantage of him. I just want to be left alone. I don't know how to do that without breaking his heart.
This is a nightmare.
One moment I am enjoying the attention and being put on a pedestal, the other moment I have to tell someone that I can't see them anyway, even as a platonic friend. I don't think that's what he wants and I can't be anything more.
This is crazy.
How do I break someone's heart? I hate doing that. But that's inevitable. I have to.
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