Addiction

I heard from him. Then I did not. He wanted to see me. He does not want to see me. I wanted to be with him in a way that I couldn't explain. I find it to be instinctual. I have never wanted him as much I have wanted anyone else. It's not logical. I would like to tell him that I feel this conflicted. I am scared of my emotional side of him. I am also able to shut it down just enjoy the pure sexual aspect of it.

He is my addiction.